“How close are you to this guy (#1)?”

That simple question befuddled me.

 I..don’t know the answer to that..question..

Nay.

I do know the answer.

We are not close at all.

So how did I come to the conclusion that he’s my ideal guy? Or that he’s “IT”? How did I get there?

Then..

I chanced upon an episode of How I Met Your Mother.

In this episode, Robin called Ted an ‘I-Love-You’ Slut because he was the type who says ‘I love you’ so easily and frequently. Now, I’ve watched this episode plenty of times, and that message must have slipped my mind each time cos it only made sense these last few days.

I am just like Ted.

Except... I’m an “I-Think-You’re-Perfect-For-Me” Slut.

This has happened before...twice.

Previously I had actually thought that two other people were my ideal guy (#2 & #3). Well, all 3 of them do/did have similar characteristics....you know.. my “template”: Indian-ish, smart, funny and geeky.

So what does this mean? Does it mean that I don’t think he’s my ideal guy? Did I imagine he (#1) is my “person”? My “IT”? 

I don’t know.... I really don’t.