To Delete or Not To Delete?..

I've been thinking of deleting my Friendster account for a while now. It seems redundant. It's all superficial to me.

BUT

Everytime i find a reason to delete my account, i will find another reason not to.

Like that time when i was so sure of deleting it and then i discovered that my good friend, whom i havent been in much contact with, created a blog on her friendster account. As much as i hate to admit this, but i too keep in touch with friends through blogs (bleagh). So, since she seems busy and have little time to talk on the phone, i decided to keep my account to keep track of her life...ok, that came off wrong.. sounded like a mom or something..
Basically,just to know what's happening in her life..

And another time when i was preeetty damn sure that i was gonna kill my account, i stumbled upon another Friendster Blog of a "friend" (who is in my contact list but i never spoke to). It was pretty awesome. Poetic and all. It's those kind of blogs that you read and you feel so dumb cos of the person's smart ways of talking about the moon and you feel jealous cos you're not as smart and you never thought of it that way but despite feeling dumb you continue reading it cos you're just absorbed by the beauty of the words used and the depth and passion of the writing that makes you heavy with a million emotions in five minutes kind of blog! *gasps for air*

yeah, so i kept my account to read the person's blog just to be drifted away by his words and the way his words run around my Envy. hmm..

Lastly, my cousin spoke to me about her discovery of her friend's engagement plans via Friendster. So, i'm keeping it for the future, so that when i'm as old as her and have a billion friends, Friendster is the best way to catch up with friends that aren't in my direct reach.

So there.
I guess it doesn't hurt to keep the account although sometimes i think the whole system is superficial with a capital S.
So i'm keeping my account.

Again, i fall into the hands of Uncertainty.

soooo tired... a few more hours to buka!

Happy Ramadhan everyone!




If i could be anything other than a human,
I would be a stick.
Just because.