I get it now.

while Allah can never disappoint you,
People can.
we can get over being disappointed with people.
But can we get over being disappointed with ourselves?

i know i cant.

I get it now why i have to work harder for my second attempt for the A levels.
Im feeling the pain of seeing my frens at NUS and myself back at where i started.
Im forcing the reemergence of pain of not making it..of being rejected.

I get it now.
I might have support from People.
Faltering support, sometimes..
But what's most important is the support i should have for myself.
That inner strength and drive.
cos at the end of it all, i'm the one who have to live with myself,
i'm the one who has to live with my desicions,
the only one who has to live with its consequences.

Undoubtedly, i need Allah's help, guidance and redha.

I get it all now.
Finally.
Alhamdulillah..


" Eyes are at rest, the stars setting. Hushed are the movements of birds in their nests, of monsters in the sea; and You are the Just Who knows no change; the Equity that does not swerve, the everlasting that never passes away. The doors of kings are locked now and guarded by their henchmen, but Your door is open to all who call upon You. My Lord, each lover is now alone with his beloved. And I am alone with Thee."

-Rabiatul Adawiyah