Two-Timing 'Failure' & 'Success'.

I have failed so many times in my life that I have come to embrace the lil failure in me. What scares me now is success. Yes, I know it's weird and ridiculous! I crave success yet I fear it. Sometimes it scares me how much faith people have in me. I tear up when they throw words of encouragement my way, but more so when they just sit next to me in silence.. just sit there managing my self-destruction, making sure I only quake, not collapse. 

I need to find a middle ground. A place where Success and Failure don't matter, and Effort is King.