wandering thoughts

ever felt like you're losing your mind? well, we all have right? sometimes i imagine my thoughts escaping through the crack in my skull and just float all around me. then i would grab those thoughts with my bare hands and put them back into my head.

i know what you're thinking.
basta has lost it.
i'm insane.. nauzubillah!!

but why shouldn't i be? With my piling workload,application essays I need to write and overdued ‘quality time’ with my friends, I should be the girl lying senselessly on the floor near the lift landing.

But again, nauzubillah!

I have never been a multi-tasker. My job has forced me to be one. Im still an amateur, but I must say that multi-tasking has made my brain work faster. Yes people, I’m finally using my brain. And yes Syed, I should take some notes from you about multi-taking. But I’m not here to talk about the killing of flies in the empty parts of my brain (er..if you get the analogy…or if it qualifies as an analogy), I’m here to talk about work. Man, seriously, now I know how daddy feels! NOW I know the true meaning of tired! This is insanely insane. I want to be a Toys R Us kid..I don’t want to grow up. Of course, now I can only grow sideways. Unfortunately, there is no option 5 or E in life. Why ‘5’ of ‘E’ you ask? I dunno.. I’ve been marking so many papers that my irritating trying-hard-to-be-cute brain kept asking me why are there usually only four options in an MCQ? Why not 5? I am as utterly dismayed/bewildered/flabbergasted (whichever you’re feeling) as you are. Let’s all slap our foreheads now.

Overall, this has been a great experience for me. However, I’m still new at many things like punishing, or even, reacting, to vulgarities and violence. These kids would go the extra lengths to find a way that enables them to say profanities, but indirectly. One girl went for a rather innocent yet creative approach. She used the ABCs to get around saying the F word. She’d go: “Auck, Buck, Cuck, Duck, Euck *short silence* Guck”. She usually stops at Guck. Haih..kids.

Now, I know that they’re growing up and their vocabulary is expanding, especially in that area. I went through that phase myself and I’ve had my fair share of vomiting profanities too *those who know the P.5 and P.6 me, insert grin here*. But hormones alone is not enough a reason to let them off with only warnings. Of course I cannot completely stop them from swearing, but at least I have the power to control what goes around in my class right? So yesterday, I made some class rules. Rule no.3: no profanities. Punishment: slap (own) mouth ten times. Now, I’m still thinking about whether this punishment is cruel. So, any input?

see ya in the next burp.



you have the appeal of a blank paper.