.im lousy at coming up with a good title, so sue me.

I was teaching my cousin just now and she kept resisting to write down the right answer even when I've told her directly what the answer was. She kept insisting that she doesn't want to put the correct answer cos she doesn't want to be right. I looked at her like a madman. Firstly because I've just had about enough of her spoilt-brat attitude. Secondly because i am so not in a daisy mood. But i was amused at the fact that she's a non-conformist, just like me.

Then she burst my little bubble with her whinning. I tell ya, that girl's the biggest pessimist i've ever met! On her first try, she'd say things like, "i don't know", "i'm stupid". Like a bad routine, I would reassure her that she's not. Then when she did get the wrong answer she'd say to me in spite, "see! i told you i don't know!" or "see! i told you i'm stupid!". I mean, i'm quite pessimistic, but I'm an ant next to her. She's the queen.

Well anyway, she pissed the hell outta me and so i gave her the silent treatment. It never fails. It's the only weapon I've got since I cant scold her physically. You know the deal with mothers. Besides, i dont believe in physical violence. Not a fan of it.

Anyhow, i think today (or should i say yesterday?) was just her unlucky day cos my temper's up to Venus even before we started the tuition. I was occupied with thoughts. Screwed up thoughts. It bites dont it when someone else thought of a brilliant (with a capital 'b') special plan for someone whom you know means more to you then he/she means to them. Yeap, it bites alright. It sort of made you look bad. Oh boy. But i gotta give the person the credit though. Pretty thoughtful. Something I once was. Dont worry, I wont go to the whole 'who i use to be' madness..it's too frikkin depressing, even for sadists.

Well, flies are occupying my head.
Transalation: I dont know what else to say.

Till then, the lid's back on.




I want to befriend the angels, but i'm too black.