popsicles

I can’t seem to go anywhere these days without being asked about my status and when I plan to get married. Oh, family gatherings are the worst. Hehh. I get it, they’re concerned about me and all that.

A cousin in-law asked me, “How old are you?”

I swear to God, right then and there, I knew where this was going. I just grinned..that’s just all I could do these days.

“Girl, you need to plan all these things. Tell me, at what age do you see yourself settling down? You need to think about how you’re going to have kids cos it’s not easy to have kids. As a girl, you need to think about your age.”

My cousin in-law, bless her heart, just wants to share the joy she’s going through being with her hubby and her one year-old to be (this 17th Feb) boy. And she has another one on the way too. She went on about kids and how they’re a bowl of koko krunch plus cornflakes plus banana nut crunch. I myself love to see Akid run around and give the most energised blow kisses in the world. He, of course, couldn’t care less about my existence. Haha.

“I do see myself having kids one day. But, I’m not going to get married just because I want to have kids. I mean, I have to find the right person to have kids with first right,” I said.

I mean, some of my friends are getting hitched and it adds more pressure to the whole I’m-not-even-attached-thing. But I have to say, I’m not ready. I’m the least ready person for marriage. I have too many issues and all those popsicle without a stick stuff; mess. Seriously, there’s just sooo many things I want to accomplish before I make that kind of commitment. Think about it, suddenly you have a man sharing your bed, and later on, a bunch of kids too..and you have to pick up after them..be a good role model. God, I can even organise my life well now, why do people think I’m even ready to bring another life to this earth and try to mould him/her to be a good human being?

Jaja said that I don’t look around enough. I am not open enough.

“Approach a/the guy,” she said.

Haha.

Yeah.

Never gonna happen.

This is the part where Jaja would go, “that right there is your problem!”

Haha. You’re in my head Jaja Binx!

Allah knows best eiy?

Take care lovers.
Don't bang on Love's door,
cos you might be missing Destiny's knock on your own door.






what happened to "it's part of the journey?"
i wish you'd know that i still think about the what could have been.