Randomly Random

am feeling awful.
but that's not why i'm writing this post.

life is like a bar of soap.
its meaning,
slippery.
but that's not why i'm here.

i haven't spoken to hajar in a looong time
we chatted on msn just now
and she told me she missed me
but she missed my sarcasm the most.
hehh.
i miss your laughter jaja binx.
but that's not why im here.

i'm engaged in deep thoughts about darkness and light.
again.
there are many kinds of light.
bright light
sunshine bright light
sunlight
moonlight
dimmed light.
but darkness?
there's only one kind of darkness.
d a r k.
darkness is the absence of light.
but you can't say the same about light
cos light is NOT the absence of darkness.
light will always exist.
kinda like the light in your heart called Faith.
darkness is a choice.
but that's not why i'm here.

i'm here because i want to go live on a tree that grows balloons.........
cos i can't stand that we're ignoring the elephant in between us.

wait, no.
that's not it either.
i guess i'm just being random.