My Downfall

i failed my drivng test today. 32 points. OH GOD. drove too near to a cyclist (8 points) and nearly had an accident while i was changing lanes (8 points). the other points came from small minor things. bottom line, i failed.

i seem to have developed quite a habit for failure lately.

it started from failing to get grade A for my A's. i got B,C,E,D7,B4 instead. it aint pretty. oh and also failing to get at least C6 for my GP, got D7 instead.
uh-huh.

next, failed to get to the three local uni i applied to. and failed to write a kick-ass appeal. yes, strike three, rejected by SMU. i forgot to mention.

next, failed to send in my assignments on time.

am failing to keep my word to work harder this time for my A's. yes, i forgot to mention this too, i am retaking my A's in school.

lastly, i failed myself.

all these failures, all at once, it's pulling me down. But you know what amazes me? After all these failures, not once did i fail to get myself back up. Of course i had a lot of help from MY 3Gs. God, Great family and Great friends. =)

Besah said to me after i failed my driving test and was going crazy with the whys, maybe if i had gone ahead and gotten my liscence, maybe i would've been involved in an accident later..who knows...

My mom too said that failing shows that im not ready to drive yet. and i couldnt agree more.

when i failed to get to uni, my teacher said, quoting jelot/biba/cekza, there is no success sweeter than deferred success. Oh, and Orange Jr said almost the same thing to me too.

the other failures are due to my laziness and procrastination, which only i myself can destroy.

see! life's looking better already!

uh-huh.

love,
love.



it was easier for you. you were 'good' going 'excellent'.
but i am 'average' going ... i dunno where.